Addiction and Depression

My new addiction: Reading manga online.

I've read whatever's there of Vampire Knight which isn't published in a book form yet, whatever's there of Thousand Years of Snow by the author of Ouran, and I'm currently reading Rave.

I first found out about Rave when I was much younger. It was airing on AXN, but sadly, it never ran its full course because it was removed halfway, and I've been wanting to watch it.

I've only found shitty quality stuff, and buying the DVDs/VCDs would be expensive. I know it has over 50 episodes.

So anyway, I'll be reading the manga.

Staying overnight at my aunt's place on Friday, which means alcohol, good food and sashimi.

I am excited.

And sad at the same time.

Its almost as if my grandmother has lost a bit of her will to live.

Visiting her today, she was saying that her hands and feet have been numb for easily 4 days. She has trouble holding stuff, dressing herself and all.

It breaks my heart to see her in that state.

She isn't getting any younger, but she can get better.

I know it.

But she has the believe it, and she has to push herself to acheive it.

I'm depressed, or I'm getting there.

Today, I said that a depressed person should not listen to my grandma, or it'll cause him or her to commit suicide.

I don't know how to end this entry in a proper way. I shall leave it hanging.

Love the people around you and surround yourself with people who love you. Don't waste any time in letting know a person you love him or her before its too late.

Time lost can never be taken back, no matter how hard you cry, how hard you beg.

Much love, to the all people that matter to me, whether or not you've broken and trampled upon my heart, or made me smile true.