First off, Happy Easter!

This may and may not be a long post. I dunno. (:

Easter Sunday today. Saw LKK at church. I was surprised. So being the kaypoh that I am, I went up to him to say hi, happy easter blah blah and asked him if he attends FCBC. He said his bro-in-law invited him.

And he was sleeping during sermon =.= My sis even saw him nodding off. But whatever. I hope he was blessed anyway.

A powerful message was delivered today, about the resurrection of Christ. Its undisputable, really. A pragmatic, psychological and experiential fact.

But I won't go into that, I guess.

Really, coming from a Christian home, there're so many things I just do without understanding the importance or significance of it. Things I just do because I'm told to, things I do because I just have to. Like getting baptised when I was in Pri 4. I didn't understand the meaning of it, and it sure didn't change me the way its supposed to. Thus I was still the quietly rebelling little hellion.

Well, not that bad, but I wasn't an angel either =/

I sank into depression easily, continued being a loner, living in my own world of books and novels, etc.

And I tried looking for love in all the wrong places.

Kind of sad, really. When there was one love in front of me, within my grasp which would never fail me no matter what I did, I ignored it, looked someplace else. What an ignorant little fool I've been.

But today, I think something was triggered, something incomprehensible by our feeble minds of humanity, beyond our understanding happened.

I was set free.

I could feel it somehow. That I was being forgiven of my sins once and for all. Maybe I could've been forgiven long ago, I just didn't have the courage then. Pastor said that any sin could be forgiven, so long as you humble yourself before the Lord and sincerely ask for His forgiveness. But the skeptic in me couldn't help but think silently: But is there a sin so great, so evil, that it can never be forgiven?

I don't think I want to know the answer to that =/

I went for service today, intending to continue solidifying my plot for ABAL (II), I end up coming out from church plot-less, but renewed.

I don't ever want to go back to the way I was in the past ever again.

But don't worry, there'll still be the same amount of humour in me. Its already engraved in my DNA to be so lame that people laugh (:

~*~

I've been sleeping too long,
Locked up inside myself, misery my cage.
Hating the world, my everything, me,
Forsaken in my depression, filled with boundless rage.

I cried out for help when I finally had the courage,
And none but You heard my plea.
But disobedient, I have been,
Broke Your heart with my actions, my words.

Still You loved me,
Took me, made me who I am now.
Break me, mould me,
Make me new again.

~*~

Anyways, had a mini-shopping spree over the last few days. Bought two pairs of shoes, a top, a cardigan, nail polish and 3 books at the warehouse sale. Whaha.

The girl in me is finally out in full force!

I also had my order placed for the final HP book. -joy-

Had a pretty fun time learning how to play mahjong, except that I exasperated the hell out of my auntie when she was teaching us =/ LoLs.

Had a few quarrels with my sis, but nothing that we couldn't settle.

The steak at ANGUS HOUSE is DELISH. Absolutely mouth-watering, to die for. The carrot soup was delightfully creamy, but not too overpowering that you'd be tasting milk the entire way. Very delightful for the palette. Oh, and I had my first taste of fresh raw oysters too. Eaten with white wine, its heavenly, with the wine bringing out the sweetness of the oyster. The salad was nice, with Japanese miso-paste like for a sauce. And the tiramisu was ooh-laa-laa.

I want to go back there again!

But its soooo ex ><

Hmm. Pretty long post today, I guess. Haha. Better turn in soon, meeting Daryl tomorrow go to down to NP just cuz we're bored =/

Good night and God bless!

(: