Blogging now before I leave the house at I-dunno-what-time.

It's GOOD FRIDAY today!

Sometimes, I wonder how it is good, with all the bloodshed and tears, all the pain and suffering Jesus had to endure. But he came through in the end, and so did we.

39 lashes of the nine-tailed whip, persecution, accusations, nailed up on the cross with a crown of thorns, jeered at, drinking from a sponge soaked in vinegar, left to die there, beeing jeered at... Its not everyday you can come across anyone willing to go through that, bearing all your sin and shame for you to be clean again.

It makes me feel bad to think that I've been taking all of this for granted these past years of my not-very-long life. Guilty, in fact. How ironic. The entire saga was to leave us guilt free. Isn't it amazing how someone some 2000 years ago would know you, and bear your misdoings for you? All the way to death?

At least he was resurrected.

I feel like I haven't been doing my Lord and King justice. I'm a bad person. I sin. We all sin. But knowing that I'm sinning though Jesus did that for me makes it even worse.

Bleh.

I will resolve to be a better person, to be a better Christian, one who can proudly go to church without feeling guilt that I have been living in sin for the past 6 days and now I'm in church with the sole purpose of asking for forgiveness.. only to sin again.

Sure, God forgives. But He'd probably get sick of forgiving you of the same sin over and over again, everytime you repent only to repeat the same mistake again, to plead with God saying, "It was in a moment of weakness..", only to do it over and over again in a never-ending cycle.

My blog entries are getting more and more.. I dunno. Am I changing? I hope I am though, for the better (:

Anyway, going to watch Mr Bean's Holiday with Char while Mum and Dad watch Shooters (I wanna watch that too! Matt Whalberg!) But it's NC16 so Char can't watch it. Bleh.

Okay, Dad doesn't even know how old I am.

Yesterday, I was talking with Dad about what we were gonna be watching today. When he said that he and mum were to be watching Shooters, the conversation went something like this -

Me: I wanna watch that too!
Dad: It's NC16 la
Me: Hello, I'm 16 already? I'm gonna be 17 this year.
Dad: ... Really meh?
Me: =.=

He only knows the day and month I was born, not the year. Hahaha. Whatever la, I'll just watch the Bean movie.

Then after that Char and I will off to grandma's place to learn how to play mahjong and bunk over for a night.

Will update after I get back, I doubt I'll be able to use the Internet when I'm here. It's only dial-up at gran's place. Don't wanna waste their money.

(: